Fireflight's songs are all incredible and relate to our lives in every aspect. 

They brought me out of my darkest days with their amazing music over a year ago, and to this day they continue to inspire me.  

This is for those who wait

Another day, another waiting game

A little different but it's still the same

I am here, but where's the one I'm longing for?

I'm having trouble feeling all alone

Will my heart ever find a home?

I want to hope but sometimes I just don't know

I know I'm not the only one

So we sing a lullaby to the lonely hearts tonight

Let it set your heart on fire, let it set you free

When you're fighting to believe

In a love that you can't see

Just know there is a purpose

For those who wait

I want to open up my eyes

I know that all I need is time

I'm growing stronger every single day

God, I'm going to lean into You now

Letting go of all my fear and doubt

I can't do this on my own so I'll give You control

I know I'm not the only one

The pressure makes us stronger

The struggle makes us hunger

The hard lessons make the difference

The pressure makes us stronger

The struggle makes us hunger

The hard lessons make the difference

And the difference makes it worth it

Walking through the corridors.

Ah! The college wasnt as bad as I thought. 

It was open and green- so perfect that I could sit there for hours and talk to myself, talk to my inner voice. One word, peaceful, can perfectly define its outdoors. And the people? I hardly met anybody. The guys at the cleric office were weird and lazy, there wasnt such a good experience in there waiting for an hour for the principal.

But then, I met the principal finally. She was a sweet and humble lady.

I impressed her, she said.

Fingers Crossed.

Ima join there as a student from this monday.

New Chapter Begins.

Finally, im getting ready for the much awaited interview~college entrance test. Each second, im moving a step near the place im gonna spend 2 important years of my life. I have never been to this college before, though heard alot from gazillion mouths how bad it is :P they say its opposite of AZ. This makes me wonder what could possibly be my opposite. Oh. I guess. Umm, dull? Lazy? Narrow minded? Disciplined? Goth? Boring? 

Ha! It sounds like bragging about myself now :p typical az-lol. 

Oh. Where was I? 

Ah, my college... Its the best one in sukkur. But then best in sukkur. Duh, you can imagine. I think its going to be like one haunted building, with dark rooms, witch-like branched trees, stinky toilets and huge barren playing grounds. Umm...and i can definitely picturise the princy...huge black moustache, bald, chequered shirt, loose gray pants...some widowed lawyer dude. 

Eh! Thats enough. 

The more i think about it, the more creepy it gets.

Signing off,

Freaked out Axee.

Lady Blah Blah Roma Rah

“You have to be unique, and different, and shine in your own way”~ Lady Gaga

I used to believe that this women was  unique.

Since I have always loved people who  are different, who you can spot out from a millions, I did like her a lot.  Plus, Her Songs were really quirky, starting off with head banging awesomeness which I listened for hours. But the  catch word is, Did. I don’t like her anymore…maybe because of the freemasonry stuff surrounding all her hype. 

 Its sucks bad,

When the person you aspire from,

Turns out to be one of those you hate to bits.

Now, I don’t listen to her anymore  and I believe I am doing the right thing.

P.S: The bright colors in my paintings of her, reflect how I used to feel about her~Joylicious!

Twilight Addict

No Dude, 

I am not one of the crazy-obsessed-with-edward-and-twilight folks. But apparently my sister is. She fantasizes about being a vampire. And I get all red-face mad at her every time I talk to her and she won't stop talking about the Twilight people. How Rosalie turned into a vamp. How alice designed the wedding dress fro bella. Argh! It doesn’t matter if its her school test tomorrow and she has come for getting help in her chemistry, she will do nothing but talk-vampire-ish, let Chemistry go to hell.

So Do you need any help in recognizing who the mortal one is? (yeah, she aint a Vampire yet, I made the New Moon mortal bella not the breaking dawn vampire one) lol jk- Nick paid me a few bucks to sketch this shit.

Didn’t it come out pretty good?

(dedicated to Aniqa Iqbal a.k.a nick)

A bit of inspiration.

Just read this beautiful

and so very true quote at

Shannon Eileen's blog. I thought It was worth sharing.

“We plan our lives according to a dream that came to us in our childhood, and we find that life alters our plans. And yet, at the end, from a rare height, we also see that our dream was our fate. It's just that providence had other ideas as to how we would get there. Destiny plans a different route, or turns the dream around, as if it were a riddle, and fulfills the dream in ways we couldn't have expected.”

-Ben Okri

Ink pens can do wonder, No?

Hey Buds,

You know what? I got 4 followers in three freaking days . Woah! Thank you so much, Im overwhelmed. So, it shows there are certain people interested in the stuff I draw. =D

and definitely, There will be some of you who read my blog, and are finishing school this year. Count me In guys, this was my last year at school too. Only a week's left and then I would step into what they call College! but Its so hard leaving a place where you pretty much grew up, found such great friends and learnt a whole lot. It was an experience that I will never forget. I will just never Forget.

I logged into twitter after a long time. It was my favorite spot in May, when facebook was blocked in Pakistan due to that EDMD thingi. Now you’d be guessing what has it to do with high schooling? Well, My Twitter has all those memorable words I tweeted while my exams were going on. Heres are Ones I found most amusing (maybe not you, but I do).

So theres questions to tackle and revision to do, but what am I sitting doing, facebook of course!! Grrrr 6:44 AM May 8th via web

Watch out kong and *, AZ n' KHOSO are gonna beat the life outta of you both on tuesday.1:01 PM May 15th via web

I wish If I could somehow have a wikipedia chip installed in my head :p8:25 AM May 18th via web

Chem ATP alhamdullah went pretty good, may Others go THIS AWESOME As well Inshallah :)9:37 AM May 18th via web

Kong's text "pagal ladki you almost got me killed today" lol Almost? I wanted Maira to spank your ass with her jooti :p9:47 AM May 18th via web

So here I am, in the end of this week. I have a week and a half left of school, can you believe it? :(11:54 AM May 22nd via web

#you gotta love it when all your guesses in exam go correct. lol-I couldn't believe I chose all the right options in most of the physics MCQS.6:02 PM May 27th via web

Its hot as if I live at Mars + My brain's being a slow slug + insomina + Ive got My Maths CIE's in 2 freaking days. Can it get any worser?Fri May 28 2010 19:46:51 (West Asia Standard Time) via web

Insomnia...My mind wont shut up at night :@9:44 AM May 28th via web

Humphhh, How lucky I am to have something that makes saying goodbye so hard, Im gonna miss My School :') Anyways, I made the doodles-cum-sketches below Or what we can call “refined” doodles when I got bored in class & that black pen seemed the only amusing thing.

Dont get excited by looking at the fact how ubber cool I sketch out of my mind, you see Senior 2 First term wasnt anything but boring, It gave me hell lotta boring hours to check my buds' cellphone wallpapers and sketch out the ones I liked.

My personal favorite,
but The camera dint do justice to her wonderful eye.
I drew this the night before the 2009 Farewell (our class threw for our seniors). the partay Attendees know why I drew the pink dress.

Cleopatra...boring Class' Doodling Poodling!

I Saw this in a Mag, teared the page, who knew it'd come handy in a boring literature class ;] I used to carry magazines to school and this is a girl from one of them.


These above two are again models I drew from Mag-Pink. Ohkay, I know the nose's a bit weird. I can see I aint so good at sketching Nostrils.

16 may 2009,

Two/three days before the PS paper,

too much geography made me mad so I begun sketching all the things around me-books, calenders, cushions, papers, pens, the bed sheet...ha!

So, I guess this post can be rightly for the class of 2010?

Okay, it’s the second day. Second post.

I am just so excited. I simply couldn’t resist blogging =P Since we both, you and me, are quite unaware of each others lives, I decided to let you sneak peak into my life and its superb cast.

I live a life many of you may brand normal but for me, it's no less than a rollar-coaster ride. With every day, my wish for living longer increases. Looks like I have to explain How's my life a roller-coaster ride? Every New day is unique, there's something to remember. Close your eyes and imagine, waking up as late as 2 pm in the afternoons. Oh! Did I mention these are my summer holidays going on and I have fanned the "it's 5 pm, im still in my pajamas, & i'm not ashamed. welcome back summer.. you've been missed" page on facebook? yes, Im part of that stream of people and If you live at my house you never enjoy quiet wakeups unless its a school day. My three siblings are as loud as lions when it comes to screaming, fighting, arguing or laughing.

If my siblings are lazy enough to rise up from their cosy beds themselves, then my dear mother does their part of job. I have a doting mother, and I understand she's the reason why I am so spoiled. She has three obsessions: watching TV Serials, reading digests (She's diehard Razia Butt, Faeeza iftikhar and others' fan) and nagging me. Idk which one bothers me more! But she's sweet, way too emotional and her cooking’s to die for! & I believe Her constant warnings that I am wasting my time alot / not studying etc keep me on my toes. In her words, I am a care free and self-centered brat. I leave my place a mess and is far too lazy to feed myself or ask for something I need. But why should I be doing anything when I have such a super mom to do everything for me =p

Coming back to my siblings (Who are actually my maternal cousins), the bestest sibling isAniqa Iqbal, my bff.

Haha! Nick's a damsel in distress but everything’s just fitted perfectly in her fairytale if only shes observes. There’s an Edward cullen to love her truly, madly and deeply and there’s her soul sister (read me) with whom she shares her worries and there are a dozen telly channels to feed her appetite for movies. But Nobody is a bigger scaredy-cat than nick! That girl is afraid of everything, lizards, cockroaches, chicks :p & If at all there was an award for the 'World's Laziest Person', then Nickey is the perfect candidate who would not just win, but would win unanimously!

My Evenings are quite the same, If I wasn’t in bed bbm-ing (texting on cellphone) I’d probably be painting or on my pc searching for new music or just updating my twitter/facebook. If I were to go out in summers, It would probably be to go get something I might terribly needing (Confession 1, I do not love shopping, I do shop but not like my shopaholic gang of friends who go gaga over a Sale at Hang Ten).

Nights…one word:totally UNPREDICTABLE!

Call Us Night Owls or whatever you like but yes, our day starts at midnight. Whether its a new flick to be watched or the gossiping-ending-in-the-stomach-muscles-hurting-laughter, I and my Babe nick do all that at night. haha!

Ignoring Nick for the moment,

Lets talk about the rest of the cast…my other friends.

Ladies and Gentlemen! I present to you Specimen A: Sagrika Esrani!

Everybody, Bid farewell to boredom.

Rika’s very presence is radiating with Joy. heart heart.

One little step towards her

One Giant leap towards total lameness

She's an overly dramatic person...umm...no less than a living example of bollywood madness.

She has went through infinite crushes when growing up and has a funny habit of branding her hunks with silly names. L-O-L, Zoya? I know rika must have bursted into laughter reading this :P and she’s very obsessed with me, see it yourself :P

Beex: dear impatient,hi! i was just kicked to the curb by ke$ha for not looking as gawjus and hawt as you.i hate you:P KIDDING,I LOVE YOU.

Axee: Haha! Thaaaaaank you Babe, I'd dump Kesha for you.

Rika: hello you are with me girl. Baby how can you dump kesha…and then have bia...where the heck am I.? :P

Axee: you had me since forever, now Cant I have a new GF? :p

Rika: N0:P Your having an affair and asking me whthr it's wrong..damn u..=p

Beex: awwww...i love you baby..♥ ♥ ♥

Axee: haha! Ily too beea and you three rik pik :p

Nick: Michael Lay

Rika: Who’s lay? Meri Saut?

Nick: Yap lady! She has been cheating on you, believe me.

Rika: aaa…never thought u'll do ths to me hubby... main apni mummy k ghar ja rahi hun…tikki u betrayed me. chssachsh...**voices ov shattering heart**

Axee: Rika, DramaQueen! Go sign a movie Right away :p

folks, meet Arslan Manzoor !!

Arsal-the Hip Hip Maniac, As I call him :D

He's a Great frand, trustworthy, never talks behind your back, Not-a-Liar, Not-So-Good-Looking but a complete SmartAss. He's completely loco Over Cigars, Rapping & HER. Has Great Sense of Humor, that sometimes ends up cheaply :p

Taking Rap away means you detach my armory/

Put me in jail still you cant Snatch the BARS from me

Mooms Booms' funneh, Young, bright, and with truckloads of energy. and she can make Suckiest serious people to laugh like idiots with her jokes. Aaaand, she's moi best buddy. :D As I once told her, I love her ‘Cos she’s fat, cute and loving. My very own Baby Elephant ;)’

Her brain is one of her hottest features :p

Now Introducing .the self-centered lovesick:p Hot Mama- Beex

Rabya and I have been buddies since 3rd grade and she has not changed a wee bit. She's always seeing somebody:p Quite frankly, I feel like punching her in the face when she gets all mushy. Loves to snap a lot of her pictures, writes songs and doesn't like her name taken. Listens to all-time low and cobrastarship all 24/7. We have had great times together.

..and finally, meet Syed lareb Ibrar!

God, there's so much to say about this real-life Isabella Swan. He's one of my best friend though his best friend are movies and food! I dont think I have ever seen him NOT eating:P I know he will definitely end up becoming a great chef one day or atleast a CHAI wala :p Just kidding, He is a great guy with great knowledge about almost everything~something I truly strongly covet. And He’s as untidy as me, or preferably more. You’d definitely puke if you see him eating any snack with sauce. Most Importantly of all, He doesn't complain but listen to all my silly stuff and unimportant things. 

Summing that up,

Bells = Moral Support, 

No Bells = AZ Dies.

He’s Pure Awesomeness, cos’ he thinks, eats and laughs like a monster.

Oh and I forgot to mention that I can be very self-Obsessed (Confession 2 : I love talking about myself :P ) haha! and I guess I’ve talked too much, and didn’t leave any space for you not to find that in me :P

Looks like I`m going to have to say goodbye now,

Feel free to tell me how randomly beautiful your life is. And how does your crew of friends make it all the way more beautiful.

Cheers to Friendships!